The Remedy

When I fall in love I take my time
There's no need to hurry when I'm making up my mind
You can turn off the sun but I'm still gonna shine and I'll tell you why

Because

The remedy is the experience.
This is a dangerous liaison
I say the comedy is that it's serious.
This is a strange enough new play on words
I say the tragedy is how you're gonna spend
The rest of your nights with the light on
So shine the light on all of your friends
When it all amounts to nothing in the end.

I won't worry my life away.

I won't worry my life away.

I won't and I won't and I won't

I won't worry my life away..

(Mraz - The Remedy)

*is it??*
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I am not crying because...

A man reached 70 years of age and he faced a terrible disease; that he could not urinate. The doctors informed him that he was in need of an operation to cure this disease. He agreed to have the operation done as the problem was giving him much pain for many days.

When the operation was completed, his doctor gave him the bill which covered all the costs. The old man looked at the bill and started to cry! Upon seeing this, the doctor told him that if the cost was too high then they could make some other arrangements. The old man said ‘I am not crying because of the money, but I am crying because Allah SWT let me urinate for 70 years and He never sent me a bill.”

Allahu SWT says: “…and if you try to count the blessings of Allah, never will you be able to count them…” (Surah Ibrahim)

Allah SWT states that the servants are never able to count His blessings, let alone thank Him duly for them. In Sahih Al-Bukhari it is recorded that the Messenger of Allah (Peace and blessings be upon him) used to supplicate;

«اللَّهُمَّ لَكَ الْحَمْدُ غَيْرَ مَكْفِيَ وَلَا مُوَدَّعٍ وَلَا مُسْتَغْنًى عَنْهُ رَبَّنَا»

O Allah ! All praise is due to You, without being able to sufficiently thank You, nor ever wish to be cutoff from You, nor ever feeling rich from relying on You; our Lord!

It was reported that Prophet Dawud peace be upon him, used to say in his supplication:

‘O Lord! How can I ever duly thank You, when my thanking You is also a favor from You to me”

Allah the Exalted answered him, ‘Now, you have thanked Me sufficiently, O Dawud,” meaning: when you admitted that, you will never be able to duly thank Me.

*source

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thought now I need a cup of coffee..

First posting on December. agh! very bad start. Feels like shit, I'm dying on my bed a whole day. WTF.

Life sounds cruel. How could it be not. my delayed thesis just starting to drive me nuts. Its now two months left before the due date. I need more material if it not yet ended before the date.

The damage seems very welcome to visit my life this last few days. and my body cant controlled it well. I am begin to dropped. and can not be steady AT ALL.

Right now, cannot mention what kind of situation comes in my head. I've lost any kind of the real circumstances. I know I am crying, instead do that, I'd rather laugh close to a very stupid crazy men.

Hoaaa...!!! Life!!! now let me know how could you convince me that God has the reason for all this.

People said : come on, where do you left the passion??
I said : maybe under my bed, or I dropped it on the way, or just fading away, I don't know. However, I really really not in a mood for a speech.
People said : no, this is not you.
I said : people sometimes change, and maybe it is me, changing.
People said : heiii!!! comes up ur mind Ndrie!!
I said : (groan) life really sounds cruel, so many thing damage my mind and it starting to hurt me. let me step back just once at this time, to walking forward in every two steps. let it just be LIKE THIS.

and people left me.

Ya, I always get succeed to make people believe that I don't need anyone to rely on but me.

*thought now I need a cup of coffee*
*I've learned that instead you said that you can lean on to yourself,
you'd better cries out*

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